Tadashi Endo

since i am dancing butoh, my aesthetic perception has changed. of course i still can sense something - like standing on a white sandy beach under the open blue sky as beautiful - a beauty that sells well in commercials. but having a closer look at a dirty, filthy corner or observing insects, spiders and worms, which all together in former times i didn't like that much - watching their movements, their colours, the fantastic shades and combinations of colours - that's like a miracle. a state of perfection hardly achievable for us human beings. those magnificient creations of nature - that's what i mean with real beauty. from my point of view "manmade beauty" will always begin between two questionmarks.

in my whole life i prefered obliquity to straight lines. for example during my time at school in chemistry class: i took several bottles, filled with different chemicals and showed to my colleagues how i might change, when i drink this stuff. what transformation will happen, if i gulp down another one - of course only for the show. when i took one after the other of those seven flasks, performed seven different facial expressions and body shapes - that was my "hit" for chemistry class, and i had to come quite early to finish before the teacher arrived. this means there is probably something inside me, that wants to bend what is straight, lay down what is standing, and erect what is laying to awaken the awareness of people through my actions. what is changing this moment? what is coming to an end in this moment? what is beginning? and what happens afterwards? those reactions and their relationship to human behaviour are important for me - something i was always curious about.